Am I Being Too Hard on my self

by moira
(england)

ok so when I found God things became more clear and I even saw his hand move into my life and i was so happy because i heard about this people who went to heaven and saw jesus...butr then dealing with school and worldly thing and being surround by temptation i kinda started to go down hill and i felt guilty because i know god will always remain faithfull but i could then i caompare to bible heros like moses... and saint and i started thinging i could never be like that and its impossible to get to heaven than i started thinking what does god see in me and so ulgy blah blah blah and that im kinda a pathetic excuse of a human, and i told im being to hard on self because I think im running out of time to repent but i find it hard, and i really havn't seen gods hand move in my life latley.
what wrong with me i thinm im a mess