Can we lump some of those topics together?

by Mel
(FL)

LOL! I know that's near impossible, but I guess it was worth a mention.
The dilemma I face is a rather difficult and personal battle. I've been married for a little over two years.
I go to a small home church where every person there is married and has at least two kids. My husband and I love kids, would like to have some in the future, and I love the people I congregate with. The issue is that right now is not the Lords' time and may never be, for all I know. I get questioned about this constantly, and I find myself looking around at my situation and feeling broken-hearted. I've been praying about my husband and I leaving the church on the basis of limited ministry opportunity, but now I'm almost leaping at the chance because I feel like the only way I'll be able to relate or get close to everyone is by having them. I would never have kids just to fit in; that's absurd. But I've been trying to get closer to the women in the group, and it's just not working. They're either too busy or I've got other things going on- something inevitably keeps us apart. If I wasn't a Christian, I would have absolutely nothing in common with them. As it is, I already feel like we don't relate.
Not too long ago, a few of my other friends (who are not married nor have kids) left the church as well. I'm wondering if this isn't a trend?! I'd never felt this way until just recently. Before that, I could have cared less about having kids. I told my husband how I felt, and his reaction was not what I expected. He pretty much told me to just stop talking about kids altogether. (It's not like I can change my heart or my mind in an instant, nor is my situation going to get any better by ignoring it. I'll just face it every time I go to church....)
I don't know if I'm the only one in this boat or not, but if you have any resources or know of anyone or anything that might be able to help me, I'd really be grateful. It'd be nice to know I'm not the only one in this battle.