Finances/purpose in life

by Ted
(Seattle)

I have been such a fool with the resources that God has given me...he has given me alot! I have wasted so much money and so much time! I fear that everything in my life is in danger now! God put good people in my life, people I could have learned from if only my eyes had been open and I would have humbled my self. I have been incredibly selfish and foolish...I cannot believe my stupidity! If I had understood the principle of stewardship I would not be in the mess that I am in now: I fear for my son"s safety! I have no purpose or direction in my life...I have wasted so much! I truely understand now that all money does indeed come from God...I have "flushed" my talent(s) down the toilet! I had plenty of money to accomplish the things that I needed to do but I pursued my own selfish gratifitions instead! If I could only have back the last ten years of my life I could have done great things! Do you think that God could or would restore me?: I honestly do not recieve any gratification from material things anymore...I was much happier when I owned much less! I fully understand now what God means now by it is better to be content with a little than miserable with a lot! I know this sounds silly but i wish I could win the lottery and BIG but not for my own personal gratification...I"d like to something selfless with the money...I am trapped in a situation that I do not know how to handle...I am truely serious about this! If God would trust me...I would love to do something for him...to serve him...I know this sounds foolish but you do not know the level of stupidity in which I have handled God's resources...do you think God would do this for me?