I cant seem to understand?

by Caryn
(South Africa)

Hi Karen

I am going through a rough time at the moment, my tears seem to be under control but heart still has pain.

I have never had a serious relationship until about 4 months ago. I was waiting for God to send me the right guy at the right time. Four months ago I thought that my prayers had been answered. I asked the Lord that if this relationship is not the man I am supposed to marry then not to let it happen. Our relationship started and I believed this is the man I am going to love forever. We shared dreams and goals and started planning our future, I know four months may seem short but we have known each other for many years. Anyhow it all fell apart two weeks ago when I foound a photo of his ex on his phone, I was not worried because I believed he loved me and I understood that he would still care for her due to their 5 year relationship. After us discussing the her, things started to change on his side. It eventually came out that they never broke up and are only taking a break (she is currently overseas). He told her that we were dating and she is shattered. This is what has caused him to tell me he needs time to work through all of this because he feels guilty. He keeps telling me he will love me forever, it is hard for me to deal with because then why is he not still with me. I want him back and have asked God to work with him to turn his heart to me again, I understand it may not be Gods plan.
I know that once our relationship started I drifted away form the Lord and maybe that is why He took him away from me but I have asked for forgiveness and now praying that he will give him back.
Karen, am I missing the point? I have been searching for answers (that is when I found this site and it has been a blessing like no other) and I know how Powerful the Lord is, He can put this all back together. I just need some advice from you.
I have realized now that I need to keep God as my priority and that our relationship needs to include Him. I truly believe that God wanted us to be together but I messed up and now I am asking for Him to give him back and I am willing to accept the conditions He gives me. Karen, am I being unrealistic or can this all come right?