I NEED YOUR PRAYER
by Lori
(Hermiker NY)
My name is Lori. I have been reading about self estem on your site after stumbling onto it by accident. However, now I believe that it wasn't an accident but rather God led me to it. I am a 43 yr old woman struggling with some big self esteem issues,which stem from alot of things in my past that hurt me, and I am still trying to let go of... which I believe have led me to some real jealousy issues. My boyfreind and I are both catholic christians who love the Lord. However, I have these issues that I can't seem to get a grip on. I get all crazy if I think my boyfriend is looking at another woman when in reality I realize afterwards he wasn't looking...this of course usually leads to an arguement and it is causing problems in our relationship. I know my self esteem is not what it should be because I am constantly compairing myself to other women and I always feel they are better and I could never be that good(looks and intelectually). This is really now making me feel ugly inside and I just want to change
things..permantly. I always say I am going to "try hard" but it never lasts. It is leading to unpeaceful feelings and I know deep down that this is not how God wants me to live. But yet I still struggle. Looking at some of the tips and information here on your site I really want to start seriously putting things into action...but now I really feel I need some prayerful support. Could you please pray for me that I can over come these issues and begin living the life that God has for me and also be the christian girlfriend that my boyfriend deserves. He is very loyal and caring and has never given me any reason to doubt him...so my issues do not come from anything he has done. He is supporting me the best he can...but now it is just becoming a real hinderance in our relationship, and it hurts. We love eachother very much and would like to be married someday but this is starting to scare him away from that decision. Please pray for me. Thank you so very much and may God bless you all.