I want a baby so bad :(

by Crystal Alexander
(Barbados)

Years ago I had TWO abortions.....I was in my right frame of mind but yet I did it....I chose my own selfish reasons above the lives of my babies..

As a result of my last abortion and a DNC, I have scarred tissue on my cervix, which has made my cervix narrow so much so that sperm cannot reach my uterus.

Now that I'm older, I've lived everyday to regret that selfish decision.

I am now married and have been trying to conceive a child for my husband, who has none for over a year.

I've cried to God many times and asked his forgiveness for this terrible sin I have commited....

The doctor says the only way now, would be fertility treatment which I have neither the mental endurance or the finances to persue and adoption is not the same.

I know that God above is still in the business of working miracles and I believe that he has forgive me and will give me a child in due time but my faith in that happening is so weak.

I kep thinking that somehow this is my punishemnt.

The bible says that what ever is bind on earth will be bind in heaven and whatever is loose on this earth will be loose in heaven.....

It also say that where so ever two are joined there he will be.

Please join me in a prayer that God would once again bless my womb with that child that my husband so desires.

Thank you