I'll keep going with God!

by Ann
(Las Pinas City,Philippines)

My Testimony::

I'm an active Sunday school girl at 10 of Salvation Army Guadalupe Corps.
It was my happiest time...my childhood.
Before i turn 19, i'm already living all by myself.Work to live, at the same time studyin'. From then on i became a young loner..nevertheless, i never stopped to look for a fellowship. Upon seein' some posts on d roads, i go t those places and sit in just to hear the word of God. I don't stay in one, 'coz of this vise i can't leave behind..smokin'! I'm ashame to be part of a particular Christian community and be recognized, that's why i hop over another... still, alone.

Can't explain exactly what i'm longin' for...a family?
I have friends though, but not fond strollin' out with them. For me it's a waste of time.

I got married at 22. Thought it's the start of the happiness i'm prayin' and wishin' for.
For years, i allowed myself to fall. For a long time i have lost myself in that love. When i've done everything I could... when i've tried walkin' ahead... when i've chosen what i want and need... until I came to a point to ask GOD... where this will lead?

I thank GOD that even for quite sometime i forgot about praising HIM....HE didn't leave me. I knock again and asked forgiveness and surrender all.
Troubles...hurts...it is only the LORD i'm holdin' with. To the hope that HE will reach my hand to be out from my world then.

My mistake is... I should have tried to convince my husband and his family to the same faith i'm into. The consequences.....abused mentally and physically. Not respected and loved purely. Situations may or may not change as we want..but rest assured, GOD's grace was able to carry me through, to survive it all.

2006, I made the biggest decision in my life. I praise the LORD, HE gave me strength... the will and the power that i needed enable for me to survive alone for my two boys.

GOD's LOVE is so wonderful. HE saved us... healed me... and helped me string all events in my life into place, wherein there came a time that i merely wanna end--- and put all the aches into rest...eternally.

I know i still have a long mile to bring up my children... but as we have CHRIST in the center of us three...however it may be...as i am giving GOD the preeminence in our lives... i'm very much sure we're on good hands..

Thanks be to GOD for HIS unspeakable gifts.

May our LORD GOD bless each one of us!