im afraid whats to come

I am in a difficult situation which i cant seem to get myself out of ! For months i have been running round in circles thinking im near the end but in actual fact i just need to start from square one again you see im still very much interested in my ex and turly believe we are meant to be together and i can tell hes still interested but i've been very attention seeking and totally unattractive towards him so i decided to stop being so desperate towards him and i asked god to give me a sign and to guide me if hes the right one and i had a dream that night it was a bit of paper with my name written on it and a gospel reading , i cant remember what it said except from three words which were highlighted the words were PATIENCE,PERSEVERANCE and OBEDIENCE. i just want to know what god is trying to tell me ever since i've had that dream my feelings for me ex have just grown and grown! and i which i knew what i was waiting on . what do you think ?