Interracial Marriage

by Marie
(Lincoln, Douglas)

My husband is from Africa and I'm black American. We express ourself differently. When he's upset he doesn't speak to me for at least a wk ,this time its been 3wks and I say what I'm feeling. I learned over the last 2 1/2 yrs to keep silent for a few days ,but then I explode out of frustration. I pray for Gods help to stay a Godly wife in the process. We recently got our son back from Africa in Sept. He was gone a year. My husband will be back in school this Jan and wants to send him back, of course it's a NO. He doesn't want to struggle anymore, but give us a better life. We have 2 other kids. I talked with my pastor and his wife about our issues. They advice me that if we have relations it will soften his heart and we could begin to talk. So I went home, and NOTHING he just kept pushing me away. I was as sweet and as nice as I could be, I let him know that I loved him and needed him and still nothing. He stays at home with our son while Im at work from 7a-3p for 3 to 4x a wk . The last 2 eve. I went to church for a couple of hrs. Yesterday nite I told him that I was tired and if he could help with our 22mth old son so I can sleep. He said "you are taking advantage of me and you dont do anything for him". I had a plate of bread in my hands and next they both were flying towards his head. He jumped up and acted like he wanted to punch me but I just stood there not afraid just angry. Next he stood right in my face told me that I dont do anything for are son which is a lie, My son doesnt go to anyone besides me once I'm home. That comment triggered a feeling of sickness towards him and I spit at him and in return he did the same. After, I just turned around and took our son and went up stairs, with almost zero feelings as if nothing just happened. I dont want my family to be affected by my behavior reguardless the situation. Please pray for me!!