Losing my relationships due to depression and stress

by malena
(corpus christi, tx, usa)

Hi, I have lost most of my friends and my family is not happy with me. I suffer from depression and anxiety issues. Everything is falling apart. my son on his bday accidently shot a child it broke the skin but wasnt bleeding and is now being charged with a 3rd degree felony. it was an accident. He has never been in any kind of trouble and is a honor roll student since he started school. my daughter is showing signs of skystrophranie and refuses help. I found out i hv corporal tunner and urbnial nerve damage in both hands and im constant pain. i am unable to do much of anything without extreme pain. my sister took back her abusive husband that is hateful to my nephews in california. and my mom is mad at me but i honestly dont have a clue why. i am in pain all day. now my pay is being cut to in sept. so i am going from $3600.00 a month take home to about 1650.00. i am ther primary bread winner and no matter how i try to fix the budget i can make it work. i feel like i have lost my connection with the almighty lord and i am ashamed when i pray to him for all my sins. i have an 18 yr old daughter that is in town all day she says she is it at the mall but i know she isnt. i told her the rules but she said she can move it with her friend ( that doesnt hv food or water ). I dont know any of her friends but 6. she is in love with a felon with MAJOR FACE PIERCING and also a FELON for stabbing someone. I have had so much medication for my hands and mental issues i am falling apart. no one want to be around me cause i have lost my happiness, peace and joy. With all this how can i appear to be happy so i can have someone to talk to. i feel so alone. my husband told me the other day i sound like a broken record cause my memory is bad and sometimes i repeat things. it broke my heart so i have decided to say as less as possible so now one will be mad, angry, annoyed at me and just try to deal with it all myself. Please show me how to put on a front for my family before they hate me and feel GODS presence again. OUR FAMILY NEEDS HIS LIGHT AND GUIDENCE SO BAD!