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My husband is not saved
I have been married for 5 years. Before that, me and my husband lived together for 5 years. My pastor told me that God said either marry him or move out. At that point, I was not ready to get married or move out but moving back home with my parents was not an option for me. I had no wishes to marry again, after my first marriage had been very abusive. After the first one, I just wanted to be loved, treated with respect and kindness. Well, in the beginning this man told me that he believed in God and went to church every Sunday. At that time, I believed him because I was only off maybe one Sunday out of every month--I worked so hard and so much we went to church when we could but after marriage and settling into this thing, I found out that he hates God. In fact, I can be in the next room with the door closed and say the name Jesus and he will go to cursing. He has knocked my holy oil out of my hand into the walls and cursed. His friends think that he is Atheist and many has stopped communicating with him because they practice some form of religion. Him and his mother has made it clear they want nothing to do with Jesus. He refuses to dress like an adult, refuses to shave and prefers to live hand to hand and mouth to mouth because that is what he is accustomed to. Over the years, he has ruined jobs for me, he has cost me friends, he has ruined automobiles and furniture. He never has a kind word, I have to beg for affection and when I do, half the time I don't get it. He refuses to take a family photo. He has shared his hate for my family and when we have been invited to do things with them he usually wants to be left out. He spends money on things that are clearly not of God and never has anything left to help but is always borrowing from me. Before I gave my life back to Jesus, he was physically abusive. I had to leave my home for 3 days because he kicked me out of my home where I pay all the bills after assaulting me because he was out all night drinking. He never has a kind word, he fusses everyday, I feel like I have been punished the last 10yrs. of my life and don'tknow what to do. My pastor begged me to come to my senses before I married him but I would not. She said God told her to tell me not to marry him because things were not what they seemed. I was not obedient and have paid for over 10 years, what do I do now. I find myself just wanting to be loved and be free.
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