My True Prince

by Angie Sims
(Decatur Illinois)

I remember as a young child, I felt utter loneliness. I did not have the childhood anyone would ask for or dream about. I had to be the mature child, the one who took care of the siblings and kept the house up. I do not recall ever being able to be a child. Before I knew it I was the girl looking for love in all the wrong places. I was so lonely I didn't care if I felt like someone cared about me for only 5 minutes, it would hold me over for a little while. I dabbled in sex, alcohol, drugs and whatever else I thought could fulfill that everlasting emptiness inside of me.

After my very premiscuious teenage years I turned 21 while pregnant with my 3rd child. Long story, I did spend seven years with the older two boys father who was "an alcoholic". I left him. Then it was me and the two boys and no where to go. I ended up pregnant again, but believed that I had made a choice and I had a responsiblity to fulfill.

Shortly after my 3rd child was born, I met a man who I thought was prince charming. Even with my wildness in the past I had yet to see how far down I could really go. Little did I know this man "prince charming" was addicted to cocaine. I hated it, I did not like him and did not want to be around him when he did. So guess what happened next. Nope, I didn't leave him, I joined him. I began a trip down the longest road that I had ever been down. I spent 3 years going through the motions of life. Yes, I still fed, bathed and clothed my children, but I was not the Mother they deserved.

In the latter part of those 3 years, after a short break-up "prince charming" and I went on a lovely afternoon motorcycle ride. I ended up in an ambulance on my way to the ER to hear whether I was going to live or die. Well, good news is I didn't die, bad news is I had broken my neck in 3 different places. The same 3 vertebra that Superman had broke. It took me a while, but I now know WHO made my recovery possible. I did have to wear a Halo for 3mo and a neckbrace for 1mo, but as of today aside from having a sore neck and two bolt holes in my forehead I am GREAT!

Time flew from here forward. "Prince Charming" got caught with cocaine and was able to enter a program called "drug court." Drug Court required that he attend 5 classes a week. Well being who I am, I attended most of them with him. Church counted as one of these classes, so we began attended a Church that "Prince Charming" had helped to build once upon a time.

Each Sunday I would sit in the service and it would be as if the Preacher had been inside of my head as if he was talking only to me, when there were 500 or so others sitting in the sanctuary as well. Well after a while, I felt different, I knew I wanted more for myself. And then out of Nowhere my PaPa passed away... The only real Man I had ever know just left me, the day after my birthday no less. Well, God carried me through those days....

Not long after, less than a month I believe I found myself on my knees at the altar giving my heart to THE ONLY THING IN MY LIFE THAT MADE ME FEEL WHOLE "JESUS". I remember getting up from that spot filling as if I had lost 300 pounds of dead weight.

Well my life had changed, well should I say my HEART. My heart was different, but everything around me was still the same. I began to pray.. pray.. pray.. My "Prince Charming" was still using cocaine, except for now He knew it was not allowed in the house, so he would leave for days at a time.

After a lot of Prayer and Counseling my Church family helped me to find a place. They fixed a trailor up like brand new for me and my boys. By the way at this time I only 2 of the boys, my eldest boy was living with his Father. During this time I had surrendered ALL to God. I wanted my son back more than anything in the world.

I only made $11.00 and hour and was now a single Mother. I began to pray.. pray.. pray.. I prayed for my son back and to be able to pay the bills. Well during this time "Prince Charming" confessed his sin to the Pastor took all of his "drug stuff" to him and gave it all to the Lord.

During this time I seen an amazing change in him and watched God do amazing things in and through the both of us. On one Sunday morning I had driven to pick him up for Church and received a phone call. It was my boy's grandma. Their Father had died in a car accident on SAT night. I was so stunned I did not know what to do.

After, alot of Prayer!!!! "Prince Charming" and I decided to get Married we moved back in together, I got my Son back and was able to Pay the Bills. WOW!!!! Life has not gone perfectly since then, but I do have the Peace of Jesus through every problem I endure today. I would never want to go a single day without it.

As I wrote this testimony today it brought back alot of memories that I have not thought about or been thankful for in quite a long time. It is amazing to me to see God work in or through people like me. But I am living, breathing proof He Does!!!

In Christ Love,
Angie