prayer for family and husband

by jlw
(alabama)

we have been married for 10 years. A few years back when things were at its worst i caught my husband emotionally cheating on me via live web cams. we tried working through it and at some point i fell out of love with him and told him. i asked to go home to visit my family for a weekend to which he would not allow me to and called me all sorts of names so i never went. one night i told him i wanted a seperation and he got really angry and tried to push me down the stairs and the next day was arrested (my family who was 1500 miles away called the cops on him). i packed thinking i would leave but ended up staying. about 6 months later i caught him again on the web cams this time talking with a young girl (under 17) he said he didn't believe her about the age so once again i believed and forgave. now we live in a different state (military) and things for me are bad. i dwell on all we have been through and can't get over it. he will not change and i have prayed for him to but nothing has worked. i need to go see my family my grandparents are sick but i am afraid he will react the same way again. please pray for me and my family. i need to visit them and maybe give him a prayer for closure on our marriage. I know that sounds bad i no longer love him and i truely can not go on like this anymore. god bless you all!