I so appreciate the words shared. It means the world to me. I live far from my family and don't want to share this with family members because I don't want them to worry about me and the boys. So your words are very encouraging and heartfelt. Thank you and God Bless you all who took the time to share your thoughts and encouraging words. Many Blessings to each of you.
Separating by: Anonymous
From what you have written, you have nothing to feel guilty about. You have been a loyal wife, have put up with a great deal of suffering from your husband and now you need time for yourself to think, heal and seek God's guidance for a better and happier life.
You are doing right, in that you are thinking things through and will, with God's help turn toward a better and healthier direction.
Seek your heart out for how you want to live the rest of your life. What do you want to do now that you've not been able to do for a long time? Once you've answered that question, then gather your resources together and make that change!
Blessings,
Separating by: Anonymous
The Lord does not want you to be a dooor mat.
You owe it not only to yourself but to that of your sons, too. I was once in the same situation you are in. Life is too short for you to want to be a mother to your husband, this should not be.
Hear me, no one can change unless they want change. First time is a mistake, second time is a want, the third time you do not have a problem with it.
YOU do not have to take abuse, there is a wonderful world out there. God has forgiven you, you forgive yourself. Do it with pride and honor, you don not need validating from the world.
Yes, it is scary, the unknown can be...but step out on faith-God is with you, I can not tell you what to do, again, in a similiar situaion, a mother with 4 kids, I am happy...I am happy, and you can too, if God is on your side who can be against you?
You are already a winner in Christ. Live and be happy, God loves you and I do, too!
I hope I did not offend and that you've heared the words of my heart.