Seperation

by Georgann
(Okeechobee florida)

I have been married for 30 yrs. and I left my husband in Feb. of this year due to abuse issues. I love my husband and pray for another 30 yrs but only if they are healthy, happy yrs. My husband is in extreme denial. I've never left and stayed gone this long before...a deeper loving relationship with Jesus has given me the strength to stand up for myself and face the disfunction in our home. He is extremely angry with me and hurt and I hurt for him. Is it wrong to be enjoying my solitude and peace and life in general without the normal daily conflict? I miss him but have decided if he opens his heart to God's healing I would be thrilled but if he doesn't ...that's okay too. Is that being selfish? I feel guilty for being happy. Especially while he is so upset. He is so mad...he calls me horrible names and only offers the bare minimum financial help ... I continue to feel such pity for him....I know he has his own issues to deal with within himself, just as I do, but where do I go from here? Do I just go on one day at a time? Waiting to see what happens? I believe our God is a God of miracles and I pray for a miracle of healing in my husbands heart...I believe the anger he directs at me is due to anger within himself towards himself....what do I do at this point? How can I help him?