Struggling to overcome the Past

Hi Karen,

Its been a while , I prayed and sought God's forgiveness for my sins in the past saying in the prayers" the remembrance of them is grievous unto us". Since then i try to pray regularly and seek God's will, submitting to HIM completely.

I have made many mistakes, many of which I could have easily avoided by listening to the Voice of Peace inside me and obeying HIM . But now I feel that HE has forgiven me completely. He speaks to me through GOD TV, Bible , and many times through friends telling me very soon HE is about to bless me abundantly and I need to believe in HIS forgiveness and constant love.

Dear karen, I feel scared wondering , can forgiveness for such grave sins come to me so fast, am I really feeling HIS presence in my Life or is this some state of my mind that is sub-consciously sustaining me.

I pray for HIS peace whenever i am overwhelmed with my past, struggling with three things all at the same time- pain and hurt of the past, resisting temptations and fighting loneliness in present and huge uncertainty in my near future. My family is praying for my marriage, they have plans, i have left it in God's hands. Request you to please pray for me, for peace, forgiveness, HIS will for my marriage and courage to face my future, to accept HIS will even if i don't like it very much initially.

Please advice.
Thanks for your support