The will of God for my life

by Zama
(South Africa)

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ, please pray with me.

I've been a born-again Christian for five years now, i believe that i have served the Lord faithfully. I have grown up so much spiritually, there are things that the Lord reveals to me regarding His Word but in my church am not given any opportunity to share these things. I am a young married woman, i have testimonies, things to share to unmarried girls which i believe they would help strengthen their walk with Christ, but i am never given any chance to share in their (girls)meetings. This is so frustrating to me, i keep asking God, why is He revealing these things to me, are they for me to learn, or is He preparing me, for me to share them in His own time. I need patient endurance to wait on God, to know His purpose and will for my life. Right now at church there is an evangelist, he is very good, God is truly using Him because our church is now being transformed, these are the things i've been praying for. But when he calls people to the front, am always left behind, he calls people to give them a special annointing for the service God has for them, he calls them to prophesy them, but not me. This causes me to have envy on others, to ask myself am i not saved enough, has God forgotten about me, do i amount to anything, I have a beautiful voice, i sing at church without reserve but nothing comes out of my songs. I tried and tried and tried to live a holy life, i need to know my gift, what God has given me to serve others with, i always believed that i have something but now i don't know. i enjoy helping others, praying, encouraging and helping them.