Waiting on God - To act or not to act

by Roxy
(New York, New York)

I recently purchased a condominium and have lived in it for over a year. It was peaceful and quiet until my neighbor above me moved in. In the beginning I informed the management company about the noise and they said that they would send notices out to him. It calmed down for a while then starts back up again. I called the company several times stating this and they asked me what were they suppose to do. Manage I suppose. Realizing that they were not going to enforce this I began to pray about the situation. I knew I would get better results from my heavenly Father. During this time of waiting I have had surges of anxiety do to noise that comes at me. Heavy foot fall noise and constantly dropping things on the floor, etc. I prayed but I realize that God was letting these things happen to change something inside of me. God will let you go through things in order to bring us closer to him. I put my request in for several things which I believe would resolve this situation. Soundproofing thoughout my unit. Need God to supply finances. Sell of Condo. My lump of coal becomes someone else's diamond otherwise I would never want someone to go through what I been through. Everyone has their own tolerance level so the right person for this would have to be put in place. Or rent it out to the right person and move elsewhere. All these require financing for I don't have the means to do this myself and God does not want me to step out on doing something that I am capable of doing. There cannot be a plan b or a what if when it comes to God. My dependence has to be totally and completely on him. I had someone come over to appraise for soundproofing. I did not get that that was something God wanted. Plus I did not get a check to cover it. If God is in it, it will work otherwise it won't. I'm trying my very best to sit still. I know God has something that is greater for me and he will act. I just don't know what I should be doing. How will I know what he wants me to do? If he wants me to move don't I have to have a place to live or will it just happen? I dislike going home and I'm am in utter anguish. The heat has been turned up on high in this situation. I can't sleep and I can't eat sometimes. I put in earplugs daily to get a break from the noise. I do not want to be a whiner or complainer like the Israelites when they were brought out of Egypt. I plead for endurance and strength. I talk to God daily about this. Am I doing something wrong? How do I not focus on something that comes at me like a freight train? I relly want Gods best and I do praise cds and attend church on Sundays and Tuesdays and bible study on Friday. I tithe 10% of my income. I don't want to miss what GOD has in store for me. I want to be changed from within and if this is how God is doing it I will endure it. Please forgive me if this is not in the right area.